The best, yet worst year of my life. I always say that everything happens for a reason…and this year has shown me that when you feel like the world is crashing down on you….relax, take a breather and remember that nothing is put in your path by accident.
Eyewitness News – The place where my year started. Eager, energetic and positive I was going to make a change in the world with my voice and my words. It was great at first but I quickly realised that it was not for me. And I’m not saying it’s not for everyone, it just wasn’t for me. What I had thought I wanted to be, was not what I was doing by working here. After many talks, lectures, thinking, weighing of pros and cons I decided I would leave. And I did.
While it was not the best experience for me, it was reality hard and cold. It being my first year out of varsity, I threw myself into the harsh world of the average working person and Oh! did I feel it. Over worked and under paid – the life of a mainstream news journalist was rough and tough. I learnt to never take anything to heart or personally. People will critic you all your life; I learnt to take it from where it is coming from. The harder the push the faster and further you fly.
Professionally, EWN taught how to work under immense pressure; I worked through some of the hugest times news journalism, Mandela’s death, the Oscar Trial and the national general elections, among other great sagas like Nkandla, the experience – priceless. I also got to meet some great people who inspire me through the work they do and the souls they keep. The biggest thing was I found I could really do anything I put my mind to. There is nothing you can’t do if you want it bad enough. I left knowing I could be a radio journalist and I could be great at it, but that did not mean that because I could do it I should. I did it, and it was time to move on, the box had been ticked.
2014 was also the year I graduated with my Honours degree. Yes – 23 and sitting on two degrees. An accomplishment in my books and something I had never planned or saw for myself. I was spring cleaning my cupboards recently and I came across a project I did back in high school. One of the questions was what I wanted to do after I finish school. My answer – I want to take a gap year after matric, travel the world and find myself haha! (The big dreams we have in school). Needless to say that never happened – I went from matric straight into varsity – but it all paid off I suppose.
Nowadays I sometimes ask myself why I studied further, I should have just worked and grown from there – but then I realise that my knowledge is priceless and can never be taken away from me. It’s something I did and worked hard at, something I have accomplished and nothing I should be afraid of showing off. Yes I have two degrees and yes I’m 23. I learnt to never be ashamed of what you work hard for. Don’t be afraid of who you are. I learnt that you can’t control what people say or think of you and anyway what people think of you does not matter – what does matter is what you think about yourself.
After 2014 I think I am more confident in the person I am and confident in the future I see for myself. I realise that the more you try to please people the unhappier you make yourself. I also learnt that life is too short to worry about the small things. The little failures 2014 brought me made me stronger and taught me that in life you HAVE to fail. It’s what makes life interesting and challenging. And if you aren’t challenged in life how will you grow.
My career – there is no plan, there is no definites and there is no storyboard and there is no “I can’t”, I am young and I feel like this part of my life will be over very soon. I won’t be able to do what I can now in a few years, so why not make the best of it. The only plan I have is to learn, not remain stagnant, live and love. And this year … 2015 I plan to do just that.
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